Guns.

Starting my business!  I'm venturing into an entirely new life here and am so excited I could burst, but it comes with finding more weaknesses than I could imagine existed, but I'm open and I'm confident.  I've just GOT to get this business off the GROUND!

The turn of the century - I mean the most recent one, I was struggling with serious anxiety and heartache and barely able to make a sane move, Everything I touched turned to dust and I couldn't function.  Then, I started walking and meditating and journaling everyday and slowly I began to come out of the fog - then I got a terrific job in a place that I still love even though I don't work there anymore and ever since I've had a better understanding of my place in the world. 

During this time, I spent a great deal of time recovering from the loss of both parents - even though they both had been gone for over 15 years at that point, but I guess I never really came to terms with that before I got to this place of introspection.

Now - I am again in a transformation but this time I feel stronger and more capable of accepting the unknown, both scary and exciting.

People who are encouraging inspire me the most.  I am always more productive and happy when I'm around people who are thoughtful and sweet and challenge me to live to my full potential.  Because of them I always try to be loving and kind and give a little nudge as often as I can because everybody needs that every day.

To understand the truth about myself and what I want to do with my time now that I have a choice, I can either wallow in self pity or I can exercise and meditate and do yoga and read a lot and enjoy my hot tomatoes right off the vine.

I want to get my flailing, (flailing, NOT failing) small business up and running off the ground.

I want to be outside as much as possible...  I just applied for a job pulling weeds.  Please understand that 2 years ago I had an 8-5, ohmygawdwhatamIgonnaweartoday kind of life that sucked the essence right out of my soul.

I jumped into making crafts as I love to do - I didn't make nearly enough money and totally drained my accounts...

But - then I had a truly inspired thought and took action and now I am waiting to hear about a loan to launch a conscious ad and marketing campaign.

I have the ambition and the excitement and everything I need, now I wait.  In the meantime I'm trying to understand what it's all about and man oh man the answers I've received.

Peace,

The Green Goddess

Two months ago.  I drove by the house I grew up in on a trip home.  It was so different, but the people who live there sure have spruced it up.  Very nicely done.

I cried.